so this is it. a blog. well with little concern of you the reader. please don't take offense but this is for me to tell you whats going on and you read. I spread thoughts and interest. you become inspired. eyes see new. this is not a journal. i will not claim to make art. this is words that form something for all us to think about. I am not right or wrong. I am not smart nor stupid. this is thought. I refuse to go through life not having a very real and honest journey. i will admit shortcoming and parade the strengths. i will accomplish and fail. i will become more. i will become less. I will not have bullshit in my life. i will love my wife no matter how hard that is or isn't. i will believe in my marriage. now stop for a second. this isn't some preachy no sense. i am care if you think that i don't make sense or have any valid points. i merely am writing to speak thought. i was thinking about my beliefs last night. i stopped and admitted to my self there were things about life that i truly believe with my all. but then i thought aboput how committed i was to said beliefs. that challenged me to really debate whether those beliefs were real or just something to grasp in case of emergency. like a 911 call system. when user is in trouble apply this and problem will have a resolution. i decide that if what i want in is life is to do something then i refuse to see here and talk about it. i will make forward precess. i won't believe everything the news says. i will not always believe that the leaders of the world are right. i will admit that peace is a nice idea but people are not meant to get along as well as we say we should. there will always be a war. whether or not its our brothers, sons, sisters, or daughters fighting and dying. i will not care about those around me that have more than i do. i have more money than most and less money than most. i will not live a life of envy and wanting. i will be content. i will love my family and friends. i will be wrong. do not be a sheep. believe in something real. don't be bullshit. if you get called out then you better be damn sure that what you say is legit. people are dumb and thoughtless. you are selfish and waste time on non sense. i am not talking about your personnel interests. i am talking about you the person.